Hey there, it’s been a while.
Things have been busy – or rather, my mind as been busy. I always feel like a thousand thoughts are buzzing at once, and the stress of it all often leaves me unproductive overall with bursts of activity (read: cramming). I worry about a lot of things: of Step. Of global health disasters that are under-publicized. Of my appearance. Of GTS. Of finances. Of holiday shopping, and how to fund said holiday shopping. Of pending reimbursements. Of money in politics. Of my acne. Of drafting this manuscript. Of wanting to get involved in other research projects. Of this Spanish class. Of my parents. Of my brother. Of my cousin – three of them, actually. Of wanting to express myself. Of having to do enough research before I look like a fool expressing myself. Of starting and maintaining a workout regimen that makes sense to me. Of keeping any public opinions relatively “professional.” Of maintaining a site like this that embodies me yet won’t compromise my future career prospects.
It makes blogging and decompressing difficult. Sometimes, I don’t find the time. Other times, I don’t find the words.
I’ll try to be better about this. I miss writing and letting go, and I figured a post-Thanksgiving thought sketch is a good way to start.
In short, this year has been amazing in a number of ways. I’m so incredibly grateful and appreciate for what I have: family and friends that support me, good health, the opportunity to explore my interests and learn from a variety of perspectives. I have a home on both coasts. I’ve learned to live independently, and even with loans, can afford to do so. I got to travel for AMA conferences, and in the AMA-MSS, found an incredible group of colleagues that share similar interests in making the future better of us, our careers, and our patients. I attend one of the best medical institutions in the country, and my mentors have been superb.
There is so much more I can write, but words aren’t coming out. I’m also tired – I think I had my first episode of insomnia last night, and didn’t fall asleep until 5am (evening caffeine wasn’t the best idea). I spent today bumming around in my apartment, and while I wish I had spent more time outside, I’m also immensely appreciative that I can afford to bum around. It’s nice to do nothing.
