Oh, 2021.
In this post, I recap how 2021 went. In short, it was a transformative year personally and professionally. I matched into the specialty of my dreams, found a home in a residency program so well suited to my goals, and am inspired to push myself every day. At the same time, it was during this year that I found myself navigating both a “public” professional identity and a personal one. I’ve struggled on how to maintain this blog in a way that felt authentic to me and remained sensitive to my professional trajectory. While those hesitations still persist today—with more patient stories and moments of imposter syndrome than ever before—2021 was a transformative year, and one that deserved as full a recap as I can comfortably share.
Intern year is a ride.
They say the learning curve is incredibly steep, and I’ve always believed that, but living it is something else entirely. It’s crazy to see how much I’ve grown over the past 4 months. I’ve pushed my limits time and time again, learned more on the fly than I thought was possible (but always feeling supported), […]
I’ve delved into this personal finance rabbit hole
(This post may contain affiliate links, which means I’ll receive a commission if you purchase through my links, at no extra cost to you. Please read full disclosure for more information.) Wow, adulthood is trippy. This financial drought between the last med school loan disbursement and first paycheck is…intense. In combination with that triple punch of […]
✅ Week 1 of Residency
What a ride. I’m still trying to process, but the past week has involved so many first’s. First time hearing myself addressed as, and introducing myself, as “doctor.” First time prescribing a medication. First time administering medication. First time intubating. First time crying at work. First time answering, and sending, a page. First time cross-covering 6 […]
Every time I leave an AMA conference,
I’m always surprised that it’s possible for my heart and soul to feel so full while my body feels so exhausted. I am excited, scared, nervous, among all other emotions.
AMA Annual 2019
I’m sitting at my gate in the airport, and despite trying my hardest to reflect over the past couple of days, it is difficult to put my thoughts into words. But to start: Oh, what a week it has been. The preparation leading up to and during this conference has been challenging. From juggling multiple […]
Disappointment is a bitter pill to swallow.
Not going to lie – this hurt more than I expected. Part of me wonders how much of it was me and my answers, rather than the fact that I’ve been appointed to a different position already. Another part wonders if I would be this hurt by the decision if I hadn’t spent the past […]
To the man who agreed to let his loved one go,
I’m sorry we couldn’t do more. I’m sorry we haven’t been able to figure out why, or how, or how to fix it. I’m sorry you had to receive the news so suddenly, had to watch it unravel so quickly. I’m sorry that the first time we meet was under such circumstances. I’m sorry that […]
What a year.
2018 was, if nothing else, a wild ride. It was very challenging for me academically and mentally. I struggled to balance life in and beyond medicine. I learned a lot about myself and what I care about. I often struggled to prioritize academics (and frankly, the competitiveness of my residency application) in favor of raging […]
Step 1 and Done
But honestly…what the hell was that. I know it’s a normal reaction, but I can’t help but feel that I absolutely bombed it. I’m be over the moon, if I end up wit a 240, but to be honest, I’d be surprised if I even got a 230, which is the national average. I’m going […]