All that studying for Chem paid off!
Over 20+ hours studying for that final…
But ahurhur, my Bio grade…I don’t know if I want to see that score…
Today’s forecast: Stormy with a high chance of a mental breakdown
Or:
When Pauline writes without much thinking
THOUGHT SKETCHES
Over 20+ hours studying for that final…
But ahurhur, my Bio grade…I don’t know if I want to see that score…
when I realize that my classes have to ordered in a very specific way to create and “ideal” schedule (as in, not having to wake up at 8 AM more times than necessary and preferably not at all).
This means that if my classes are filled up before my registration time WHICH OCCURS DURING MY “NO ELECTRONICS” WRITING CLASS, then I’m…screwed. OTL OTL OTL
ANTH 300, please open up more slots or have someone drop or have a kind professor who accepts extra students. I prefer not to wake up at 8 AM on Mondays or any other day of the week.
Because it means thinking about when school ends. Which means thinking about finals. Which means thinking about grades.
My grades this semester aren’t up to par, and it’s causing me to stress out.
Chem this semester is a struggle. I really needed to do well on this exam so I could pull up my grade from last time, but despite studying, I didn’t get the score I wanted. Bio is always stressful, especially for these next two exams. IR is easy to understand, but I keep forgetting that my professor doesn’t curve, so I need at least a 94 to get an A. Writing has been super frustrating because I am rarely inspired by my prompts (which are always very vague), and my grade has been stagnant. Sure, it’s always a decent grade, but because a large portion of grading involvesimprovement, and I have none, it stresses me out.
But on the upside, research is coming along nicely.
Or rather, it’s very different from high school.
Like how your peers and professors will actually be impressed if you raise your hand to give the right answer.
And how the guys actually look cute hot decent shirtless.
And how you can feel busier even with fewer class hours.
And how homework seems so much taxing when it isn’t assigned and collected every day. Or even at all.
And how a 100-person lecture hall no longer seems intimidating, and a 50-person lecture seems almost too cozy.
And how some people can party every night and still pull through the workload.
And how I feel behind by not reading ahead enough.
And how exams and midterms seem to be thrown at a constant rate.
But at the same time, college isn’t so different after all.
Like how procrastination still exists.
And how I still fall asleep in math class.
And how I still feel socially awkward, and haven’t yet found my niche.
And how there actually are some ‘cliques,’ in the form of Greek life.
And how I still have to occasionally speedwalk (read: run) to class.
And how grades are still such a priority. (Damn medical admission standards…)
And how extracurriculars are still so important on a resume.
And how true friendships take a long time to form.
College is weird. It’s different. It’s repetitive. It’s downright quirky.
And I love it.
my mom decides to give me The Talk.
I screamed.
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My aunt asked my dad if I have been depressed lately. She thinks that I’ve become “really skinny,” and was wondering if I was dealing